8, 9, 10! Ready or not Here I Come!

I am twenty five years old. A quarter of a century old. Time is like a bullet train. You don't see how much you've grown until you are able to look back on your life.

I was able to see myself as a four year old little girl on a old tape my mom and I were watching. I saw my family twenty one years ago. My boy cousins, my mom in her twenties, my aunt Kim playing super mom, my dad and gramps and my gorgeous hilarious Aunt Tash just starting her life, barely twenty. I watched my four year old body squabble with my cousins, play cops and robbers, pick at food and dance like MC Hammer with my Michael Jackson hat that stayed on my head ALL night!  I watched me twenty one years ago...and its funny, surprisingly I haven't changed that much. I look at those eyes and they have not changed. 'Thinking eyes', my dad calls them. I still like to pick at my food, squabble with my cousins from time to time, and dance like the energizer bunny on a red bull diet, in the privacy of my room of course. I am still a drama queen and I'm still a tomboy. The only real difference is my deep admiration and overwhelming awe for the adults that I watched all my life. Now that I am an adult as well I can understand their sacrifices, their strife, disappointments and their huge commitment to us, their children. They did a phenomenal job.

I am twenty five years old now but the little girl inside is still there peeking through. I pray that I never grow too wise, too old for her. She helps me see life as an adventure, she reminds me that I'm still young, energetic and have soo much to discover in this big wide world. She never lets me let go of that long list of dreams...

 I pray I never ignore her, I pray I  never mistreat her, I pray I never let her disappear, I need her around to keep me grounded and respectful to my elders that came before me. I need her to make me laugh. I need her
to be silly when I'm too serious. I need her to believe when I'm cynical. I need her to take a gigantic leap of faith when I'm too afraid to move.

So I made a promise that I will keep her around till the end, so that even death will be a  fascinating discovery, because there is no fear in death when you know you are just going to get back up again.
Much love to all the children out there that are allowed to be children and the children at heart. MUAH!